Loss

My sister just updated her blog about their loss.  My heart has been breaking for her this last week.  I feel a million miles away and it has stirred up some old feelings.  I have had some loss this last year...but yet I know that there is truly nothing I can say or do to help my sister get through this tough time.  And my loss was so different.....

In times like this I want to ask God, WHY??  But, I already know the answer......I know that these babies that are lost to us  are never ours to own anyway.  They are His.  We hope to have the privilege to care for them until our ripe old age.....but that is not always how it works out.  His plan is bigger than ours.

After my first miscarriage my WONDERFUL doctor said to me, "I think about the day when I enter the gates of Heaven and I will want to ask God 'Why these type of things happen?'.....but I don't think I will need to b/c I think at that time I will already know."

There are some sweet little spirits up there right now.  I trust that God knows exactly where they should be.

When times are hard I like the saying, "When you can't see His hands,  trust His heart."  

I'm praying for my sister and her husband.  I'm praying that the peace of the Holy Spirit will soon embrace and consume them.  I know that it may take awhile.....grieving is a process.  But God is good, and he loves us so much.  He wants to be invited into our pain.  It's just hard sometimes to truly hand it all over.