I'm struggling today. Hubby and I opened up our calendars today to plan for the week ahead. As I was adding his commitments to my calendar, I realized that Baby Girl's 1st birthday is in less than two weeks. Wow....is that here ALREADY??? Bu,t that is not what knocked the wind out of my sails.
What kicked me in the gut was in 9 days I have a doctor's appointment to get needed vaccinations for an upcoming missions trip. I have been putting them off and because of that I won' be getting the full series before I go. I have been putting them off b/c one of them has not been deemed "safe" while nursing. So...I held off. My appointment is in 9 days. I just realized that in 9 days I need to be done nursing.
I'm like a zombie today. I could start crying at any moment.
For some this may seem so silly. There will be a few out there that will understand. Either way, I still feel like I want to puke.
This is my last baby.
A month ago I was 100% happy that we were not having any more babies and I was 100% ready to wean from breastfeeding.
Today....I'm sad.
Nic-
ReplyDeleteI totally understand where you are coming from. One minute I want to wean and the next, I couldn't ever imagine being done breastfeeding. I have no idea how I would be knowing that was my last baby :(
Bethany