Nursing update....for those who care :)

I had to quit by Monday.  Sunday night was our last time.  But, I had a meeting.  So after dinner I tried to nurse her and she was not interested.  I was rejected.  Our last time and I was rejected.

Sadness is not even a strong enough word.

I went to my meeting.  Cried when I told a few women.  Came home and cried.  I was a mess.

I quit too quickly. I wasn't ready. I was so sad and physically uncomfortable. 

The next day I was channeling the "dark side."  I was moping around.  The pain in my chest was a constant reminder of how sad I was.  (Am I being dramatic.....YES.....b/c it was tramatic for me) 

I go to my appointment and the doctor did not have all my vaccinations on hand.  He had to order the one that I was unable to have while nursing.  Sooooo I have another 2 weeks. I was SO HAPPY!

 It's not that I'm not ready to wean her.  I know I will feel very free when it's over. But, I need to take it in baby-steps. We are only nursing at night right now.  I will be done in a week or two and it will be gradual enough that I won't feel so sad and empty. (I hope)  I know...freak mom....oh well!

Today is her 1st birthday!! What a crazy year...but I survived.  More soon!